A Monday Afternoon's Musings

It's Monday afternoon the chores are mostly done, Oldest is at school and the three little's are playing with Hubs, soon it will be time to pick Oldest up from school rush home to make dinner and get ready to head to the ball field for Sari's softball game.  My hubs was one of the unlucky one's of the economy...the mill he worked for for years closed it's doors and on to unemployment he went. It's been different having him home everyday, my scheduled routines of the day are a thing of the past and it's been a huge adjustment. We have less money than we did before and finances have become a sort of struggle while he has been job hunting. I oftentimes find myself frustrated and angry with our situation. Am I ungrateful for all the things the good Lord has provided for me? NO. Do I sometimes forget to look at the blessings He has bestowed upon me? YES. I find myself asking why me? why US? And then I realize how selfish I sound...yes things are more difficult, my marriage has seen it's shares of ups and downs lately but I decided to put my faith in the Lord where it belongs. He will never leave me nor forsake me. And maybe just maybe having Hubs home has been a blessing in ways I haven't allowed myself to see. My kids love that Dad is home more now, Hubs is getting to spend time watching them grow and experience things he would of otherwise missed out on. Yes eventually he will find a job and go back to work and I will have a routine back to my day but we will lose out on making as many memories with him. So now when I find myself bitter and frustrated with the messes left for me when Hubs has the kids or when we sit down to figure out how we are going to juggle this month's bills I will make myself find things to be thankful for. Such as we are not homeless, we are lucky to have the basic necessities of life, food on our table, clean clothes, electricity, so many things other people don't have. But mostly we have each other and a promise to each other that we will stick out the hard times and come out stronger because of them.  The knowledge that our God is an awesome one who never gives us more than we can handle and oftentimes tests the strength of our faith to remind us that through Him all things are possible. Thank You Lord for the lessons.